the need for reassurance

i have been thinking a lot about the songs that i tend to love more than others and what the main message is in those songs. some of them i have tattooed on my body, others just sit in my all-time favorite playlist.

all of these songs have some reassuring sentiment. "we'll be alright", "if it's meant to be, it will be", "that's just the way life goes".

i am someone that turns to music first whenever i am going through a hard time. i tend to keep things to myself mostly instead of talking about everything when something is going on. i don't know if that is a good or bad thing at this point. but i do know that music helps.

i try to think about why i lean on music so heavily when i have really solid people in my life who could give me the same reassurance. i didn’t always have friends who understood me or how i was feeling. a lot of my friendships were surface level for a long time, and i didn’t really have the ability to express my emotions properly either. i think i started to understand myself more and work through my feelings once i found songs i could relate to.

i can point to different times in my life and remember what i was going through because i remember the song i played over and over to get me through it.

it probably does sound like i’m dependent on music. maybe i am. i don’t mind though.

anyways, do you have a song or artist you depend on to remind you that it’ll all be alright?? let me know.

i am going to share my all-time favorite playlist. i started this playlist in 2019 i think & it takes a lot for me to add a song to it. i am fully aware these songs are well-known, some of you might be like, WOW those are basic. i don't give a damn! these are songs that i would consider perfect, songs that i associate with my favorite memories, or just songs that were there when i needed them. the playlist is also in order from fun to devastating. enjoy!