no good at goodbyes

hi! hope you are all having a lovely day, maybe sipping on a lil latte or a talllll glass of wine... or water i guess.

i have been having a weird month so far. i am in the middle of moving across the country as i am writing this.

i am so extremely excited because i have been working towards this my whole life it feels like and at the same time, i cannot be sadder to leave my friends.

i moved to wilmington when i was 18. i had very few friends, was so unsure of everything, and really struggled to put myself out there. as the years went on, i met so many amazing, creative, kind people and fell in love with this little beach town. saying goodbye to this place & the people that watched me grow into who i am now is so bittersweet.

i have so many songs that i connect with wrightsville beach, my time here, and everyone that has a piece of my heart! i am going to put that playlist below & some highlights on why i chose these songs.

i will be avoiding listening to landslide or ribs at this time.... thanks!

my love letter to wilm + my friends. 💌

• glitter by benee was a song i found on my friend's playlist in 2019 when i was having a really good day on campus at UNCW. i remember it was really sunny, i was in the best mood, and just feeling overall grateful for where i was at in my life. to me, this song is about just being with your friends & not caring what you are doing, all that matters is that you stick together.

• happy & sad by kacey musgraves and really the whole golden hour album was the only thing i listened to in 2019. many, many drives to WB playing this album.

• a lingering love by fruit bats - i have had this song saved as my 'going away' song for a long time. it has always reminded me of wilmington.

• piece of me by lady wray - shannon has this on one of her infamous playlists that she plays at Edge of Urge. working with shannon was already the best because she is what i would consider to be a perfect person but on top of that, she introduced me to so many new songs. this song helped heal me at the time when i needed it the most, and so did Shan.

• stayaway by muna. if you know me, you know allie. if you know allie & i, you have heard stayaway. most likely not by choice. this was our going out anthem for so long, now it just makes me think of my best friend.

• can i call you tonight? by dayglow is a song i listened to once when i went for a sunrise swim when i was feeling sad & i can't hear it without thinking of that day.

• tears dry on their own by amy winehouse - this one is silly, i listened to this song on repeat around 2021 when i would kick the soccer ball around my old college house by myself. cathartic for some reason?

• ooh la la by faces was a song i used on one of my annual posts where i reflect on the past year. the first time i heard it, i was sitting in the back of my friends truck with the windows down, sand on my feet, and a smile on my face for the first time that year.

• golden by hippo campus is one of my all time favs. there was a time where i used to drive to work around 5:30am every morning and the only thing i listened to was hippo campus. not sure why.

• mirrorball by taylor swift. i had to include folklore in here. when folklore came out, i was cleaning out my old apartment & getting ready to move home for the summer. this album changed everything for me & i am not exaggerating at all!!!! thanks.

• magic in the hamptons by social house was our going out song when i first moved here. i love thinking about those times, they feel so distant now.

• man! i feel like a woman by shania twain. f*ck this f*cking song & the people who played it on repeat at blue post. i put it on here because i feel like it was only right.

other songs are from very pivotal times in my life, songs i shared with my best friends, and other songs that just sound like Wilmington.

i love you all. i will miss this place more than anything.